February 2012
9 posts
You'll Come
“I have decided, I have resolved To wait upon You, LORD. As surely as the sun will rise, You’ll come to us, As surely as Your Word endures “
I haven’t heard this song in a while, but it was stuck in my head all day yesterday. I guess lately I’ve been losing faith in Him and suddenly all my troubles seem to have been magnified in my vision. I realized this past week...
joy is a choice
crazy day
In Media Productions, Mr. Knowles accidentally uploaded PDF’s of Adobe Premiere’s Lessons for CS5 but our school computers have CS3, so we ended up watching The Princess Bride for the rest of the period
2 quizzes + 2 back-to-back tests, one of which I completely failed
Car/bus crash on the corner of State College & Dorothy = can’t get picked up at front of school = the...
Immanuel
“The LORD your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
I was flipping through the Bible during service today & I came across this text that I highlighted in blue a couple years ago. At first I passed the page but returned to it when I saw the pretty shade of...
I would love to go to a stranded beach far far away by myself and scream until nothing comes out and stay there for a while.
Everything's changed?
A lot is changing so fast & I don’t know what’s going on or how to feel.
In fact, I don’t feel at all lately.
mehrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Earthquakes
Lately, I’ve been hearing a TON about earthquakes.. I read Yahoo every day (it’s fun, try it) & literally every week there’s another earthquake in some part of the world
I’m positive the world won’t be ending on December 21, 2012 (If it does, then it’s because God planned it to, NOT because some stupid Mayans ran out of room on their calendar)
But most...
January 2012
25 posts
Second Semester Schedule Sucks
ALLITERATION!! hehoh
Well anyway
My schedule is screwed up this semester so now I only took one semester of Beginning Dance (WHICH, if went according to mah plan, would let me complete my required credits for PE AND Fine Arts) so I only have half of the required arts credit for graduation & now I have PE (AGAIN, I THOUGHT ONE YEAR OF PE IN 9TH GRADE WAS ENOUGH) & I don’t mind...
2 hour nap = yummmmmyyyyyyyy
I loved this weekend Loved loved loved it. No homework, got to relaaaaax, played some guitar, watched some movies, & didn’t care about ANYTHINGGGGGGG, I loved it.
Yeah, I wasn’t out playing all day, but sometimes we need these weekends, you know? These weekends where all you do is watch movies & rot at home.
Sadly, it’s all coming to an end.. 2nd semester,...
Today
is crappaaaay.
Tis a lie in bed and watch chick flicks kind of evening.
"The horse is made ready for the battle, but...
VICTORY!!!!!! rests with the LORD!!
sigh can’t get enough
Surrender in Victory
Surrendering in victory- oxymoron?
To me, it makes perfect sense. I surrender not in my own defeat. I surrender everything to Him because I know that the enemy has been defeated, and so my struggles, my regrets, my past, my pain, my joy, my future, my dreams, my hopes, and everything I have, am, & am not are in the hands of the maker of Heaven & Earth. I surrender, knowing that I am...
Today
I was honestly blessed :’)
I wouldn’t say I got RAK-ed, but I sure felt like I did. It feels nice knowing that someone (other than God & Grace teacher & Eugin) cares about how my life is going and stuff.
NOT saying that my friends don’t care (I FREAKING LOVE MY FRIENDS), but no one ever asks me how I’m doing, you know? BUT It’s okay though, because I...
Fear
I got an email from Colorado State University (because I subscribed to some college board thing, apparently), telling me about the place.
Lately, I’ve been so scared of college- scratch that, I’ve been so scared of junior & senior year, when I PREPARE for college.
I feel like I’m not ready to be prepare, like I’m not taking enough honors/AP classes, like I should be...
“I sing a simple song of Love.”
I know I am Under Construction
Because little things like not being invited to go somewhere still hurt me & make me bitter
& because not knowing what to wear in the morning frustrates me
& because when I’m angry, I cuss with the same mouth I praise with
& because my heart is foul, bitter, and rotten at times.
But there is still reason to rejoice: I am Under Construction.
He does not leave me here...
“LOLOL HE’S LIKE A SPONTANEOUS BF! “HEY!!! I love you :)”
– Joanna Lee
HEY YOU
God loves you :)
More than you know, More than you could ever imagine, More than you will ever imagine.
You are a beautiful creation because He has made you in His image, & every stronghold the enemy has on you is BROKEN in the name of Jesus!
You have been forgiven- HAVE BEEN, meaning PAST TENSE- by His grace & His LOVE & nothing will ever change that!
We rejoice in truth because...
Bitterness
It’s like a disease
It is a disease
It spreads through your heart rapidly and takes over your thoughts, emotions, words, and actions
Until next thing you know, You say something you don’t even know you could or would say & you’re left wondering, “Where did that come from?”
Then you become bitter about your bitterness & it becomes a vicious cycle of...
December 2011
8 posts
Awakening
For You and You alone, AWAKE, my soul AWAKE, my soul.
Fill my bones, my muscles, my flesh, awaken me, breathe into me, make me new.
Break me over & over again Humble me, break me, and increase in me.
“Slap” me in the face, a good slap in the face, an awakening, a new perspective, another glimpse of Your Glory.
But above all, continue to be ever-present in my life- whether I...
just a little bit of many confusions on my minds.
but that’s okay.
I miss
going on late night Albertstons runs with you to buy butter pecan ice cream & eating it while watching some history channel’s show about Noah’s ark.
I miss you
a
lot.
Funny how
Everything always seems to go wrong all at once
:l
Words can't explain-
November 2011
7 posts
“This is my prayer in the desert, when all that’s within me feels dry This is my prayer in my hunger & need, my God is the God who provides”
When all that’s within me feels dry.. DRY. That’s how I’ve been feeling lately. Dry. But why? He invites me to His fountain every single day. He tells me to drink & be filled. But it’s me, it’s me who...
Hmm
I’ve been feeling really insecure lately. I keep telling myself that I need to lose weight, I need to go shopping, I need to put on more makeup. But I know it’s not just me- it’s this world
Seems like everything we do in our every day lives revolve around society. We allow society to tell us how we should look, behave, talk, and think. We’ve grown to believe that wearing...
Identity?
Honestly, I don’t know what I see looking back at me when I look in the mirror. After I take a shower, I stand there and just look at myself. I don’t know who I am.
I say that in the least melodramatic way possible…
But seriously, I try to live up to expectations, but I don’t know what they are. I try to fit in I guess, but I don’t know what I’m trying to fit...
The soothing sound of rain makes the end of the...
One of those suddenly-miss-you-again moments
no more National Geographic with you
no more going to the market with you
no more going on road trips with you
no more awkward moments with you
no more eating ice cream with you
no more going to school with you
no more cracking jokes with you
no more family dinners with you
no more watching tv with you
no more laughing with you
no more fighting with you
no more singing with you
no...
“Identity is the essential core of who we are as individuals, the conscious...”
– Gershen Kaufman
October 2011
11 posts
It's not Mothers' Day nor is it my mother's...
but I’d like to take a moment to say that I love my mom so much <3